Another Death brought to you by Scientology

After you have spent hundreds of thousands of dollars and are in debt up to your eyebrows, how does this "church", help you?  Read on.  It would be bad enough if it were a few isolated cases.  But this goes on all the time in Scientology.  Their policy of secrecy makes it difficult for these stories to get out to the public, but more are coming out all the time.  Click Here to see some of the many deaths directly related to Scientology.

Based upon the story "Death of a Scientologist," by Tori Marlan, Published
in The Chicago Reader August 16, 2002

January 16, 2003
By Rick Ross

Scientologist Greg Bashaw reached far beyond the mythical plateau of achievement
that Scientologists call "clear." Bashaw rose to Operating Thetan Level 7 or "OT7."

The highest level a Scientologist can hope for is OT8.

But after 20 years of Scientology courses, auditing and training Bashaw killed
himself.

He was married and left behind a teenage son. Bashaw was once a successful
advertising executive, but he died broke, deeply in debt and unemployed. And the
church he had dedicated so much of his life to abandoned him through
"excommunication."

Greg's father Bob struggles to understand what happened to his son. He says,
"I knew him and this wasn't him -- What the hell happened here?"

However, Bob knew about his son's dedication to Scientology. Early on Greg
borrowed thousands of dollars from his father for Scientology-related courses.

Bob says Greg used one of the loans to go with Laura to the church's Los Angeles
complex for course work; he paid it back with interest, explaining that he'd felt
pressured by the church to pay. He wrote his father, "Our financial officer for the
Church informed us we would need another $1,700 to pay for the package we were
securing. It was imperative to get it this past week; otherwise the annual price
increase, which he had held off for us through administrative fancywork, would go
into effect. Simply put, if we didn't send the money Wednesday, the prices would
have gone up on us by $500."

Greg's parents were divorced. His mother quickly realized that her son was involved
in something she felt was potentially dangerous. Bob received a letter from his ex-
wife during 1981 citing an article about Scientology in Reader's Digest titled,
"Scientology: Anatomy of a Frightening Cult."

Greg's mother said in her letter that when she'd questioned Greg about the article,
he claimed it was part of a conspiracy contrived against Scientology by
"psychiatrists."

Greg's mother passed away before her son's suicide, but it was clear that she was
deeply concerned about his involvement with Scientology.

Bob instead essentially accepted his son's involvement and did nothing.

Bob knew about Scientology's bad press, but when Greg said the stories about were
not true, Bob accepted it.

Greg unsuccessfully tried to recruit his father.

Bob continued to have nagging doubts, but says, "There wasn't any big red flag that
went up. And that's really what I was looking for."

At times Bob defended Greg to other family members. He said that he would "do battle"
with Greg's aunts. In a letter to one of them he wrote: "The horror stories of
Scientology victims and my imagination, plus what I have read, certainly conjure up
rage and anxiety." But he couldn't bring himself to take any action. He said,
"Integrity does not permit me to have a loving relationship with him while covertly
working against what he sincerely believes in."

Bob concluded that his son was "free to make his own choices in life."

Greg largely cut his mother off after she criticized Scientology. Bob was afraid the
same thing would happen to him. A bitter divorce had isolated him from his other
children, but Greg had been away at college during that period. Bob wondered, "Do
I take this position to not alienate him because he is the one of three children of
mine that I am in touch with? The only one I can share my feelings and he truly
shares his feelings with me? The answer is no."

So Bob decided to remain silent about Scientology.

Greg went to Clearwater, Florida, a bastion of Scientology, to take courses, which
strained his budget. His wife and son did not accompany him because it cost too much.
Money became tight for the Bashaw family, despite the fact that Greg earned a large
income.

However, like most Scientologists Greg thought it was all worth it. He wrote,
"Scientology has saved my ass, that's for sure. Now I'm unstuck, in the know, and working
towards completion. It will be a new life when I get back."

Greg even believed his training enabled him to talk to the dead. He wrote Bob, "It's
easy, like talking on a telephone, when you have the hang of it." Greg didn't divulge
details because his talks with the dead "happened in the context of formal auditing
sessions and so are confidential."

Bob remembers thinking, "What is this crap?" He considered doing something and claims
he knew it was "bullshit." But in the end he did nothing. He rationalized; that maybe
it is possible to speak with the dead?

Greg seemed to have a "good life." Married with a son, living in a two-story house on
16 acres of land in Barrington Hills, Illinois. And he was a highly paid successful
executive at a well-known advertising firm.

But Greg was spending large sums of money on Scientology. Greg not only paid for costly
courses; he donated even more cash to the controversial church. So much that they made
him a "patron" of the International Association of Scientologists.

And Greg Bashaw decided to take on Scientology's critics by harassing them at anti-cult
conferences.

"None of my encounters with Greg were pleasant," says Reg Alev, a former executive
director of the now defunct Cult Awareness Network (CAN), which was bankrupted by
Scientology lawsuits. He says Greg even confronted him on the way to the bathroom,
yelling about CAN being a terrorist organization. Alev adds, "He was extremely
confrontational and loud."

Jim Beebe also once associated with CAN says Greg picketed outside the CAN office and
even outside staff members' homes. In 1992 Greg and other Scientologists sued the group,
claiming religious discrimination, when they were refused membership. And Greg filed a
complaint with the Illinois Department of Human Rights.

Cynthia Kisser, executive director of CAN after Alev, said Greg's actions were part of
an organized effort to "harass and disrupt" the network. She says that during the early
to mid 90s Scientologists like Greg filed 50 nearly identical lawsuits and human rights
complaints against CAN. Eventually they were dismissed, but they took their toll on the
organization financially. Scientology eventually sued CAN into bankruptcy.

Greg left one advertising firm for another in 1997, but it was demotion according to his
father. Bob later found out Greg quit after his old firm took on Prozac as a client, a
drug that Scientology's Citizens Commission on Human Rights (CCHR) claimed could lead to
"homicidal rages," suicide and had tried to get the FDA to ban.

Scientology believes they have the answers for mental health and are totally opposed to
psychiatry and psychiatric drugs such as Prozac.

Bob says he could tell Greg was changing. His conversation was stilted and often he just
repeated what someone else said. He wasn't his usual self. A former professional associate
characterized Greg as "a deep thinker," but observed that his old friend's "creativity was
not at the same level of consistency." Greg admitted that this was "connected to the auditing.
" Auditing is the intensive question and answer sessions Scientologists undergo with their
"auditors," in an effort to supposedly "clear" themselves.

In September of 2000 Greg Bashaw returned once again to Clearwater for more Scientology
training. His father finally said, "Greg, you're spending a hell of a lot of time down
there. I don't understand it. You're spending time away from your job, and you're spending
time away from your family." But Greg only answered, "You're right, dad. You don't understand
it."

Greg was now an OT7 and he didn't get back from this trip for a month. When he saw his father
again he admitted that he'd been fired from his job.

When Bob met with Greg later after that trip he learned that his son planned to kill himself.
Greg was going to drive to a forest preserve and drink a bottle of Drano. Bob said, "I'm
holding him, and he's saying he failed everybody, he isn't worth anything, he's a total
failure."

Greg's last trip to Clearwater was apparently a disaster. "They threw him out," Bob says.
Greg told his father that his church said they couldn't help him and sent him away, telling
him never to return.

At this point the reality of his son's situation hit Bob hard. He said, "This is when the
whole thing hit the fan with me. I realized what the hell [Scientology] had done to him."

Bob wanted his son to go to a psychiatric hospital and he says Greg's wife agreed. "That
surprised me," Bob said, but it seems by this time Greg's wife had quit Scientology.

Greg checked into the psychiatric ward of a local hospital, such places are anathema to
Scientologists who ardently oppose psychiatry.

The following morning in the psych unit, the first thing Bob told his son was that Scientology
was evil and that it was his enemy. Greg seemed upset by this. "It was as if I'd slapped him
in the face," says his father.

Greg tried to commit suicide twice in the next couple of months. His teenage son found him
the first time on the floor, almost dead. The second time he emailed a suicide note to a
friend who alerted the police. They arrived just in time to save his life again.

Then Greg promised his father he wouldn't try to kill himself again.

A Scientology spokesperson denied that the church excommunicated Greg. She said, "He seemed
to be having some rather large troubles and he left the church to go sort out his life." But
she added, "Frankly, no Scientologist would ever seek psychiatry as a solution to their
problems."

When asked why so many former Scientologists so ardently oppose the church its spokesperson said,
"There's only one reason and one reason only, they have lots of words they don't understand."
A cryptic allusion that whatever failure there was it was a personal failure, rather than
anything Scientology did.

In the Spring of 2001, things seemed hopeful. Greg was working again. An old friend found him a
job. Bob visited with his son and he seemed to be getting better.

But Bob still wondered would he be alright? He wrote his son about a retreat for cult survivors
in Ohio called Wellspring. Greg wasn't interested. He responded that "One of the things that
happens when you have the bad experiences that I've had is that people assume your own beliefs
are faulty." Greg rejected any possibility of professional help Wellspring might offer.

Greg then began to shut down. Phone messages from his father went unanswered and letters were
returned. Greg finally wrote back and explained, "It's almost as if I had a stroke on a mental
and spiritual level, and I have to start with learning how to use a fork again, metaphorically."

Greg Bashaw finally admitted, "For the last 10 years I was fooling myself regarding the services
I was taking [with Scientology], and whether they were advancing me. I wanted them to be... In
retrospect, I would have been better the last ten years to have focused on simply building a
family life, and on work, as most people do... Being on the services the whole time was almost
unbelievably demanding in terms of time, money and commitment. The fact that it did not 'pay off'
has been an exceptionally bitter pill to swallow. The fact that at the end of the road I ended up
in worse shape than I'd ever been in my entire life... well, that has been completely
irreconcilable with any concept of reality."

But Greg seemed to be considering his future, He said, "I would like to get to a point where the
focus of my life is not on my disability. It's been very difficult talking to people lately,
because typically the whole conversation pivots around how well I'm doing or not doing."

But whatever optimism Greg expressed it dissipated by that summer. A former Scientologist he
confided in said Greg told him that he "had broken something that the Church of Scientology could
fix, [but] they weren't going to fix it."

During the last two months of his life Greg had no work. He stayed at home and deteriorated. He
owed the bank $27,000 and $29,000 on credit cards. Bob says that early that year Greg's wife
talked about suing Scientology to recover the money they'd paid in advance for auditing and
course work. Bob says he was told they had "a balance of nearly $200,000 in credit."

However, Greg wouldn't sue. He wrote his father, "It would subject me and my family to a great
deal of shame and embarrassment, and additionally such a stance does not reflect what I believe
to be true."

His old friend got a call from Greg. "He asked me, 'What can I do?' He was in torment. He felt
like he was losing control. I didn't have an answer. I asked him to come here right away." Greg
drove for hours to his friend's home in another town. His friend recalled, "He arrived at my house,
coherent but just barely hanging on. Greg was shaking and had all but lost the ability to function."

Greg agreed to check himself into a hospital. At first he refused medication and counseling. As a
devoted Scientologist he had been drilled to resist the evils of psychiatry.

Bashaw had spent more than 20 years in Scientology. He gave the group everything he had spiritually,
mentally, and financially. He wanted to lose his "reactive mind," but in the end he just lost his
mind. His father says, "There were periods of time he was rational and he realized he was losing
it and it was a terror, a horrible thing to him."

A former long-term member of Scientology explained that the church claims "it has the solution to
all your problems. Then you realize most of the problems you had, Scientology created. That former
member, who met Bashaw concluded, "Greg knew this but couldn't accept it. Greg Bashaw could not let
go of the mental indoctrination he'd swallowed hook, line, and sinker -- he had a hard time
struggling with the fact that he'd been living a lie. Everything he thought was real wasn't real
anymore."

Greg wrote his father for the last time during the summer of 2002, "I wanted to call on Father's Day
but was hospitalized and had no calling card. My condition worsened dramatically three weeks ago.
I have been in the hospital the last two weeks and am now moving to an intensive outpatient status."

But despite his condition Greg still insisted that his wife not sue Scientology. He said, "They would
put 50 lawyers on the case. They would employ private investigators, and the like, to help win their
case. And the stress would be enormous... If you could get her to consider these points, as I have
repeatedly over the last few months, it would be greatly appreciated."

Greg then said, "I told them this morning I still felt depressed and suicidal," and ended cryptically,
"P.S. Thanks for being a great dad."

After leaving the hospital Greg drove to his friend's house and had dinner. It seemed like he was
recovering and he talked about further treatment. But just three days later Greg Bashaw pulled onto
the shoulder of a road, duct taped a hose from the exhaust pipe of his car into a window and sealed it
tightly with a towel. He then sat in the passenger seat until he took his last breath of carbon monoxide.

Greg Bashaw ended his life just like Scientology's founder L Ron Hubbard's son had 25 years earlier.

The police found a suicide note in his hotel room. It said simply, "Goodbye [son], you were a good buddy.
Love dad."